It’s been four days since Ms. Gallbladder retired.
I was told to be on total bed rest for 48 hours following surgery, after that it’s up to me how I handle the healing process. Of course, I decided, in advance how that would go. I decided that by the end of the week I’d be back to ‘normal’ activity, maybe just eating carefully.
Well, it’s now the end of the week. I woke up at 1pm. This is not ‘normal activity’. Sigh.
Before I got out of bed I did a little attitude adjusting. The Mind was getting really stressed, client invoices ‘are supposed to’ go out today, taxes haven’t been filed, I’ve been trying to finish that article for weeks….ack! So much to do! So, I let Soul take the reigns and love on Body a bit, then together they helped reset the expectations of Mind. The world will not stop if these things don’t get done today. The long-term impact of delaying these tasks is minimal, the long term impact of pushing my body, of not allowing it to heal, high.
By the time I got out of bed I was totally cool with spending another day on the couch, in and out of sleep.
I took a shower and then required a nap. Also not ‘normal activity’. Another attitude adjustment needed.
I often use henna to write a one-word intention for the week on my arm. For some reason, before surgery I felt compelled to write Grace on my arm…well, now I know why. I will need to offer myself a lot of Grace over the next few days.
I tried to write this and after reading it three times, I’m still finding typos. Also not ‘normal activity’. Another attitude adjustment.
And I’ll do that as many times as I have to today, and every day, until my body is healed.
Living my life in an empowered state of AntiSurvival is not a ‘once and done’ thing. There’s no miracle course or magical solution that will instantaneously transform me…it is an ongoing conversation, sometimes many times a day. It takes commitment and work and support from those around me.
Something tells me the next few days are going to be doozies…lots of grace shall be doled out in Team Sunni this weekend.